Can you believe I'm anxious about this?

I'm a bit anxious for the interview with the people in charge of the college program. I can't wait to show 'em what I've got inside.

Dear God, nothing is ever going to be easy eh? That's fine, I'm going to conquer this. I'm strong, I'm smart, I'm bright and I'm a professional, they will want to have me.

Think of me tomorrow morning, I'll leave at 7h30 to arrive at the college around 8h35-40. My appt is at 8h50. I'll have enough time. I need prayers, vibes, positive thoughts, hugs, anything.

Thanks in advance.

freaking cold... AKA I'm sick again...

Damn it, I am sick again. I don't get it! I received my freaking flu shot and it has made no difference. Once again I'm sick with a bad cold. I have a fever, my throat is sore, my lymph nodes are swollen, my nose is stuffed, I cough and it's painful. I hate being sick because I feel vulnerable and I'm whiny.

I've been taking decongestant, taking tylenol and Motrin IB, sucking lozenges, drinking sirup and at the moment I'm drinking a Neo Citran.

I have an interview at the college tomorrow morning. I don't wanna look like hell. I need to impress them for God's sake. I need to look good and speak clearly. I'll get a good night of sleep, dress nicely, wear lots of makeup to make me look alive and sell myself.

I'm finishing my Neo Citran and will take a long hot shower, put jammies on and rest.

13 tv shows I've been watching

I have a lot of times on my hands so I've been watching TV, everything is not interesting so I'm kinda wasting my time but it keeps me occupied. I've got a bit of a cold but I'm happily doing my Thursday Thirteen.

1. House I always thought he was rude as hell, but he still is but he grew on me...

2. Law and Order Criminal Intent

3. Dr.Phil

4. Oprah

5. Judge Judy

6. North of the 60th

7. Annie et ses hommes A quebecer show...

8. CSI New York

9. CSI Miami

10. Maury that's pretty pathetic...

11. Law and Order SVU

12. Super Nanny

13. Desperate Housewife

So which of these shows are you watching?

I have no inspiration for a witty title for this post

I don't know what's up with me. Something needs to happen, I need to get my ass to college or work because that whole thing makes me feel under the weather. I'm on the edge of losing it. I'm bitchy, I wanna fight everybody, I wanna fight. I don't know if I'm PMSing, maybe, that'd be a good reason to feel close to the edge because for God's sake, I'm starting to annoy myself. That's a sign you know.

I procrastinate most of the morning to finish something for the parish and finished it... finally.

I've been listening to "Yes, we can'" song from Will.I.Am and I love it. I wanna buy a Omaba shirt but the official Obama store doesn't deliver to canada. Whatever!

I've been taking melatonin since Friday night and geez it's working. Anyone taking it?

What's up with you guys? Anyone has an update for me?

My interview for the college program is coming

I received a call this morning. I have an interview Friday morning at 8h50. That's awesome. I can't wait! I hope to God to be accepted by the college.

I had a good weekend, on Friday night, The Passionate One and I went for beers at a bistrot and it was nice and on Saturday, I went with The New Blogger (TNB) to a sport event with the kiddos and we all had dinner and then spent the evening chatting.

I'm enjoying myself wearing my jammies this morning. I'm going to a conference this afternoon at TNB's workplace. I'm listening to Woman by Shawn Phillips, how freaking great is the song? I have nauseas but I don't understand where this is coming from... I'm not sick or pregnant. That's for sure!

I'm addicted to this game!

The Father sent me the link 2 days ago and I keep playing. I love that game. My record is 341 lives saved. What's yours? Wanna beat me? This is the game, it's free but addictive.

I'm going to play another few games and get to bed, I'm going to eat breakfast with a friend tomorrow morning and then off we go to shop in Bigger Town.

Bye my lovelies! Let me know if you love my game.

Judge Judy rocks!

I'm watching Judge Judy and she rocks! She's confronting some crazy women who's been messing with her kid's head by telling the then 6 years old little girl that her dad was NOT her dad.

I like how she's confronting her. Here is the link to the website, go to Thursday, mother and 6 years old.

She's yelling "You are a moron" to the lady!

13 things I've been wasting my time on in the past week

I say wasting but I mean 13 things I've been spending time doing. I'm unemployed, it's OK to waste a bit of time. This is the longest vacation I've had in a long time and I'm enjoying it now.

1. I've been spending a lot of time on this blog.

2. I've been working on The Parish's blog. and it's looking quite good.

3. I've been surfing my blogroll a lot and commenting a lot.

4. I've been reading http://collegecallgirl.blogspot.com a lot...

5. I've been watching TV but daytime TV is boring as hell...

6. I've been sleeping late in the morning and getting my butt in bed late at night...

7. I've been baking, tonight, I made biscottis. I'll bring The Tall Friend some this weekend.

8. I've been working on summer project for The Parish. We will hire a student for 10 weeks this summer if we get the student program grants. The student would be hire as a guide to do tours of the church with visitors, it would be historical visits. Not religious...

9. I got a Facebook account and have enjoyed sharing with my siblings.

10. I've been emailing a lot The Friendly Boss and exchanging on different things...

11. I've been chatting on the phone with lots of friends...

12. I've planned a dinner with a former co-worker (tuesday night) and will go for breakfast with some friends from the other Parish in town on friday and we'll go shopping all day after.

13. I've been praying and sending lots of love and positive thoughts to some people around me who are going through a hard time.

That's what I've been up to. I'm quite boring but I've been enjoying life. These unexpected vacations are helping me recharge my batteries and I'm feeling good.

The artist, if you are reading me, I miss you. Give me a call, we need to do something soon.

And just because I'm mean and cruel

We are talking about the same jerk who harassed me because I was taking my shower around 18h15 when I was getting home and it was bothering him. What the fuck ever! You are at home all day, you live off my taxes and people's taxes. Take your goddamned shower whenever you want but I'm gone from 7h00 am to 18h15, take it in between those hours. When I get home, I'm going to do whatever I want. Our appartment are not even on the same level...

The man's looking for shit, sadly for him I guess, I'm not interested, so he gets "OK' from me, nothing else.

What the hell is wrong with people? How can one feel that entitled? Jerk!!!! Anyone have neighbor like that?

My neighbor is a jerk

One of my neighbor is a jerk, I've had numerous issues with him. He's a drug addict who's not working, just lives off welfare and is a real PITA. I'm telling you, the guy has issues.

I just crossed him outside, he's all hyper and grabs my arm and says "Be careful when you walk, you walk so loudly that lights bulbs are exploding". Whatever fucking jerk, there's no way my footstep are shaking your ceiling. What the hell? Exploding lights bulbs? Lay off the crack pipe, jerk. I just rolled my eyes at him and muttered a "OK". After all, he's a junkie, I didn't wanted to piss him off but for god's sake, relax. I don't weight 900 pounds and I don't wear combat boots inside jerk.

Your music is loud enough that I can't hear the TV sometimes.. Other drug addicts are coming and going out of your place ALL the fucking time. I have never complain to the maintenance person because I don't want to stir shit. But please, shut the fuck up. I don't care about your issues. You bring them all upon yourself.

I'm sorry, the man aggravates me.

John.He.Is

I'm sorry to jump in the political blogging but you guys have to watch this video. It is called "John.He.Is" it's about John Mc Cain's campaign, the video is inspired by Obama's song. It is very good... As you guys know, I'm Canadian but I still have an opinion.

The link to the John.He.Is video.. I swear you don't want my opinion on McCain. Or on Bush, for what it's worth. I do not speak about politics on this blog but this is something I feel comfortable doing today. I hope you guys don't hate me, because my political stance is not going to change.

Go Obama!!!

I should be sleeping by now....

I know, I'm so freaking bad. I just love staying late. I know I'm not getting up tomorrow morning. I was told that it takes at least 2 weeks of time away from work to relax and just forget about everything and it's right, I'm just 100% relaxed. I am not overwhelmed anymore with feelings of sadness and "un-worthiness", not at all.

I discovered the blog of someone I knew when I was a teen and young adult and I've been reading it almost all evening. I did spend quite a while on the phone with my friend The New Blogger (TTF's wife converted to blogging 2 weeks ago) You should have seen TTF's face when he learn his wife had a blog! That was fucking priceless, "What the heck did you do to my wife" "I swear, she asked me, I did NOT talk her into it, AT ALL.

And I also spoke briefly with TFB. We'll finish some work for The Parish tomorrow...I've been kinda dreading work with The Parish because things are a bit hectic, for some reasons, we seem to be facing some attitude issues and I'm kinda hot tempered and it takes a lot for me to let go and not lose it. Some people push my buttons more easily I should say. Luckily for me or unluckily for him, (it's a matter of perspective) TFB had a way of calming me down, always. There's some people who are able to get through us and just calm us down. He's one of those people but when you work HR, you've gotta be like that or you are a jerk. So hopefully things at La Parish will get back on track fast enough and I'm just going to take a chill pill and patiently wait.

I'll keep you up-to-date with everything.

A Sunday update

As to answer CQ' and Jenny's question. What degree will I take in college?

The degree I'm planning on taking is Bilingual Management, Accounting and Office Automation.

That's the one I'm going to be scheduled for an interview before the end of febuary.

If I don't get it, there's one that looks a little more interesting and it's Bilingual Office management. It includes the same classes as the previous one but about 300 more hours of management classes. That was my favorite one but I just couldn't see myself wait until August when the classes would start. But I would have like the management classes because I see myself in some type on manager position one day. We shall see...

Where I'm from, College is different that University. It's 2 different systems. There's pre-university programs in college like humanities, sciences and litterature. The others are mostly technical college degree. Nursing, all type of physical therapist, medical technician, Accounting technician, Administrative technician and so on. In University you get a Bac or a Master degree or an Doctorat. Does it make any sense? After you graduate from college you either have a DEC (Diploma of College Studies) or an AEC (Attestation of College Studies)

Cross your fingers for me? I don't have a problem with the bilingual part but in my area, people who speak both french and english are on demand. I can't wait!!!!!

I had a quiet weekend, rest, relaxed a lot. I'm okay and sleepy!!!!!!

Hope everyone is well!

BTW, the email I sent the company I interviewed for on Thursday must have been received because they didn't contact me on Friday. They are on the Sunday paper because the job hasn't been filled yet. (NOT my problem)

So, I send them an email.

I was absolutly convinced that the position I interviewed for this morning was not for me, and after a short talk with TFB, I send 'em an email. He has a lot of experience in employment the field and he told me it's always best to let a potential employer them know when we withdraw our name for the position when there's no interest. As The Gal Herself made me realise, even if they had an opening in the customer service, it wouldn't be that interesting. The fucking commute would still be close to 2 hours and they wouldn't pay me like Big Multinational Company did.

So I inspired my email from this letter I found online. I used an email because that's the information posted on the employement website.

2000 Very cold street
God forsaken Canada
XXX XXX

Febuary 7th 2008

Mr. The man who interviewed me
His Title
Company Name
Adress


Dear Mr. Interviewer,

I would like to thank you for interviewing me for the XXX position. Unfortunately, I must withdraw my name from the list of applicants.

Thank you for considering me for this position.

Sincerely,

No Nonsense Girl

This girl is going back to college! :::::I'm doin' the happy dance::::: Honest to God, I can't wait to have the interview to get in the intensive program. I'm very very excited. As for the rest, I'm OK and happy in my decision. I had a great time with The Tall Friend's wife and kids at dinner time and doin' homework with them. This is time well spent because it's good for the soul.

I miss my co-workers from Big Multinational Company, I miss 'em dearly. Life goes on eh? So what's up with you guys?

A short update

Well it's not going to be a long update and I don't feel very articulate but well. The interview went well , the 2 interviewers were nice but after reflection, but I don't feel enough qualified for the job and I don't think this is a good fit for me.

It's a very nice company but I feel underqualified and I don't think it's for me. They told me they were going to let me know tomorrow because they had other interviews this afternoon.

I hope I do not get it because I'll decline. It's OK to say no to a job offer, I just do not feel this is a good match for me. The commute would take forever, I'd have to leave around 6 AM to be at the office at 8h00 AM, and I lack some qualification and there's a gut feeling that says "This is just not for you". I'm going to listen to this.

I still am willing to discuss this with friends and I need to to feel confident in my decision. I don't think it's smart to accept a job offer that you don't really want. It would be a PITA for the company and for me to have them train me and invest in me if I already know I wouldn't be happy there eh? I'm trying to be smart here and also respect myself.

How should I do this? Should I email 'em today to thank them but let them know the position doesn't interest me but if they had openings with customer services I'd be more than willing?

Let me know!

Life is moving fast but here's an update...

Yeah, it's just strange, life's fast, life is surprising, life is life eh?

It's moving on pretty fast, it always does. I got caught again. I know you don't know this but I'm a control freak. I plan everything in MY life, I want to control everything because I'm insecure. That's what insecure people do, they plan, schedule, control, look ahead. Have a plan a, b, c and d, just in case, not to end up screwed. I'm a planner, it's almost ridiculous. I always get caught because I can't control everything, there are soo many thing under my control.

Anyways, I had a great meeting for my resume on Monday, I also decided to get my ass back in college. I picked an interesting degree, intensive program, starting in the beginning of March. I called on tuesday, there was still opening places, so I could get in with an interview. If I was able to get the program funded by some type of grants.

Tuesday afternoon, I went to my hairdresser (she BTW did a magnificent job, I feel beautiful and I am. After my appointment, I stopped at the local employment office, I completed my inscription and met with some agent. He was very nice, I gave him my resume, gave him the information on the intensive program I wanted to get in and asked him if I could get in the program that is some type of grants. (I receive unemployment for the time I have, as many week as possible. They pay for the tuition, books, inscription, everything and gave me a transportation allowance. If my unemployment ends before the end of the degree, they gave me a weekly allowance to survive while in college.

He accepted me in the program and I could get in fucking college, at no fucking cost. The program is available to everyone who has unemployment without a specific degree or to get a new career. My studies were in humanities in college, that's not much, plus I don't even have the fucking dimploma because I just wasn't able to complete the course 10 years ago.

Anyway, he accepted me. So this morning I went to Bigger City, at the college and I got a record of my grade's in college because I needed it for the interview to get in the intensive college program. I also ordered a copy of my high school diploma because I lost it. For God's sake, I got it in 1994, that was a freaking long time ago.

I get home at 12h10 PM today, I see on my caller ID "X company", they didn't leave a message. It's one of the company I applied for a job last week. At 12h20 I was on the phone with The Nurse and I have a line, so I put her on hold and guess what? It's the financial manager of that company and he asks me for an interview tomorrow morning at 10h30. I agreed to it and told him I look forward in meeting him.

I was shocked, I was beside myself. I had chosen plan B because I was sick of waiting for call back from the jobs I applied on and I get a call.

Once again, it's a great lesson to teach me I do NOT control everything. I know I don't, but at the same time, I always believe I do. I'm going to go with TFB, it's in Bigger City, I'm excited, a bit stressed but at the same time, I'm very very happy and will do my best.

Ain't that strange, how we think we are in charge but are not?

Today is also Ash wednesday, I haven't ate meat yet, it's a day to fast, to abstain from meat, no alcohol and no sex! not that I have sex anyway. While we are talking about lent, last night at the Church council meeting, we talked briefly about lent, The Parish priest said we oughta give up sweets and chocolate, I had to bite my tongue to tell him when he asked me if I was going to give that up "No dear, this year I'm going to abstain from sex. It's not going to be easy but I can do it! It's funny because you can't give up something you don't have or do eh?

Please, think of me tomorrow at 10h30. Thanks soo much!