Guess what I did this evening?

Following an hour long talk with The Friendly Boss (TFB), ( my friend and former boss from before), I updated my presentation letter and my resume and actually send an application for a job as a customer sales representative, something similar to what I'm doing now. I know am good at it, I enjoy that type of job.

It helped me to do an action like this one, a first step. I've been looking at jobs, classes in tech school, in college, at university. I've been kinda looking everywhere. Tonight the long talk helped me focus and ACT. It pacified me, the talk really did... Share about my day, my stress, my weekend, his too and his perceptions . I'm feelin' good, focus on the only thing I can control: my attitude.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

God, Thank you for giving love and family to some close people around me who deserve the best and needed badly those moments....

If people want to keep in their thoughts and prayers my colleagues who were laid-off Thursday, I'm sure it'd help.

I've been listening to this since yesterday. How sad is this? Borderline pathetic eh? Hold me for a while is the name of the song.

Well, what a day it was....

Au contraire of all of my fears the day was OK and actually good. The weirdest but good for the self esteem thing was that so many people gave me positive feedback on my maturity, my professionalism, the way I was handling the news. I'm also the only one who was laid off that actually came back to finish the 2 weeks... Can you please keep those other people in your thoughts? Some had been working at BMC for many many years.

I know I'm mature and professional but it's nice to hear it by others. I'm also not the type to pour my heart onto strangers, I mean, I'm really sad to be laid-off but I'm still going to keep my head up and act like the woman I am. I'm strong, I am a peacekeeper and I can do whatever I want. Sky's the limit!

It's very important to keep a good name and have a good reputation, I will preserve it because I'm acting as I should. It's sad but I know better things are to come. Thanks to each of you for the support shown and the thoughts. I really appreciate it.

I got home early because The Tall Friend picked me up at work at 17h00. Tomorrow I'm leaving work a bit early to go to a Dr's appointment that I'd cancelled in December when my boss requested that I stay when I was suppose to be off that day. It's the day my cable Internet is installed also. Phone, Internet and TV are all going to be from the cable company, screw Bell Canada. (the deserve to lose their clients, they treat us all like crap)

Again, thanks a lot for the support! I am well, I'm hangin' in tough.

Thanks Candy for reminding me...

Thanks to Candy for sending me the link again to this beautiful text.

If I can endure for this minute
Whatever is happening to me,
No matter how heavy my heart is
Or how dark the moment may be,
If I can but keep on believing
What I know in my heart to be true,
That darkness will fade in the morning
And that this will pass away, too,
Then nothing in life can defeat me
For as long as this knowledge remains,
I can suffer whhatever is happening
For I know God will break all the chains
That are binding me tight in the darkness
And trying to fill me with fear,
For there is no night without dawning
And I know that my morning is near.

I hope you have a good day and a good week. I'll be updating tonight. At the moment, I just want to do it one hour at a time, one day at a time.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.