If XYZ didn't happen to me, I wouldn't be who I am today.It made me this strong person. But I also chose to transform it into something creative, something full of life. It was a "Marvelous misfortune" says Boris Cyrulnik when he speaks of the concept of resilience. We as humans can be creator of life when terrible shit happens.
Two years ago I was the shadow of who I am today, which isn't bad, it's just a fact. It's sad but nothing that couldn't be fixed as you can see.
On a lighter topic, the cruise ship was somewhat big (not huge), the people were nice but I didn't feel the "magic" connection with the visitors. Was it my fault? Maybe?! I was tired, had a long day, I was also more than prepared, happy to be there. No one was rude, they were nice, interested but the "magic" connection, the little click that makes human interaction different wasn't there. But no one pissed in my Cheerios! The weather was magnificent, just in the 80s F, not windy at ALL, just awesome.
TFB and SW joined me very early, parishioners came. We were close a little before 16h00 because the cruise ship left a little earlier than planned. We went to the park parallel to the shore and look at the ship leaving. The weather was nice, we met with many local people. (Duh!) I believed I was done, I even said there's "no fucking way I'd be leaving my place tonight" but after a shower, a drink, an hour in my jammies I went with friends at The Coffee Place.
I'm sleeping in late tomorrow morning. I think I'll close the ring on the phone so I'm not bothered if someone calls. I need to relax. I don't have to go home because I stopped at the grocery store on my way back home.
My plans for the "after" are being done, they will include a "Go back to school for an intensive year and get a permanent job after".
What are your plans for this weekend? How was your week?