I went to mass on Saturday night, as you know, I've not been such a faithful catholic in the past months. I guess when you are behind the scene (aware of what goes on in the community), sometimes it's just enough to keep someone away from practising. But I needed to go because I wanted to inform the parishioners that we'll be having a student at The Church for 6 weeks and to invite them to visit and come while the church's doors are open.
Mass was OK I guess and my little speech before the last prayer went well. I thought I was clear and I thought people understood my words but after 3 people came up to me and said "What did you say?" and suddenly I remembered that people just don't pay attention when someone speaks at the microphone. For some odd reason, they don't listen. I knew better than getting mad because it's always that way but it did piss me off a little bit.
My compassion meter is a bit broken when it comes to church business and that's freaking sad. I think I need vacations from The Parish because I have no tolerance left. I'm tired, I have been swamped and overwhelmed with Church council's business and I need a break. I'll get it in a few weeks. I'm going to survive and be well because I have a "real-life" outside of the Parish but I need a serious and total break and as soon as my student is able to work by himself and function well and as soon as the Parish's datas are transfered I'm going to be on vacation for few weeks.
I got a call Friday morning from The College and my college program is scheduled to start on August 18.
Other than that life's been treating me well, I've been able to spend quality time with friends and enjoying myself... I'm sorry I haven't been visiting you guys as much as I use to. I promise, I'll get my butt back in gear soon enough. How's life been treating each and every one of you?
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Hi, NNG! Been feeling a little bit the same way (will blog about it soon) as you do and I haven't visited anyone much lately. Hope you're well! :o)
Oh gosh, look at that... Saturday night mass was all right. huh. I wonder what wonderful blogger encouraged you to go about 70000 years ago??? hmmmm?? I just can't remember....
:)
Thanks candy! :)
Claudia, yeah, I wonder who tried to convince me! LOL!!!!! Thanks :)
I think it's great that you know yourself so well. It sounds like you're right -- you do need a break before your patience and empathy are totally depleted. But I know a lot of people who would stick it out, get grumpier and grumpier, and make EVERYONE AROUND THEM pay for their bad moods. Glad to see you're not one of those people. (I bet your fellow parishioners are, too.)
Huh, sounds like compassion fatigue. That happens a lot to people, especially those in human services fields. I think all the work you do for the parish qualifies. :)
Just take care of yourself and remember that it's okay to say no when you're maxed out.
You better log back on SOON, chickie, because I just tagged you.
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