I'm hangin' in... I had not prayed that much in months, I'm still pretty not willing to discuss this at length. I've talked about it a lot with TFB because than man is special, I opened up with my doctor on Tuesday... At work people are pretty shocked with my mature reaction, impressed at how professional I am and they've been telling me since Monday. My boss, the one at the company's head office told me yesterday how freaking impressed he is with me and the way I'm handling myself and my attitude. We'll see how next week goes. But to impress the bigger boss at head office is a positive thing.
I spoke with our human resources manager, she's a very sweet person, as I was telling TFB last night, I wish I had 50% of her confidence, gosh I would break walls!!! She was incredibly sweet with me, we talked in person but it was easier for us to connect by emails afterwards. Anyway, at the plant, I'm seen as very strong, mature, professional and positive.
Today was a busy crazy day but few times I had to tell myself "This isn't personal, relax, this has nothing to do with you, don't take it personal"... Like managements meetings to which I'm invited by emails but that I can't attend, everyone is going but me but as I said, this has nothing to do with me, it's OK. It's not easy not to take it fucking personal but I was able to relax and let go. I'm exhausted, over tired. I need to sleep, I want to rest....
Thanks to everyone who's thinking of me.. Thanks to NapWarden who's making me a great template..
Love ya all!!!