Sad news...

I received an email from The Father asking me to call at home ASAP because something tragic had happen and they wanted to speak to me. I received the email this morning but to my home email and I was busy at work and wasn't able to check my home email before 15h00 today. The news was that one of my cousin (who was my age) got killed in a car accident in Western Canada very late Thursday night.

What's worse IMO is that this past June his father (my uncle) killed himself and now The Cousin dies and that leaves my poor aunt widow and having lost her only son.

Can you guys pray and think of my aunt and my family? My aunt is devastated, she hasn't slept yet and takes it hard. Everyone is affected and need strength and hope.

Thanks in advance!

Thirteen truths that have changed my life...

1. If you don't love yourself no one will... How could they?

2. When someone says "If you loved me, you'd do this for me", they really mean "I don't give a shit about you, satisfy me. Dump them, they don't care about you!!!

3. Rock bottom isn't the same for everyone... And it's not until you've hit it that you can change your life...

4. If you don't forgive your own mistakes, you'll never move on... I know some mistakes, errors are terrible but holding anger at yourself will not help you.

5. There's nothing you can't fix with the truth. And truth WILL set you free... There is nothing that drives people more insane that living a lie. Been there, done that, bought the tshirt.

6. God's love is magnificent! He changes our heart....

7. Perception is everything... That and attitude can change the way you see things.

8. People don't read your mind, if you don't say what you feel, no one can guess it. People aren't mind readers... SAY IT! EXPRESS YOURSELF!!!

9. The only person I have control over is myself.

10. Letting go is a powerful and very amazing thing....

11. When there's a will, there's a way. Sky is the limit!

12. It's possible to have a second chance in life and fully live it... I'm the poster-child for this

13. Friends are the most precious treasure in the world..Cherish them! Tell people you love them daily. Tell them how you appreciate them. Tell people how you feel about them. Life's short, live it!!!


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Random links.. (funny ones)

Dude, there's some pretty fucked up people out there. Eh! They are worth a good laugh tho, has anyone read Overheard everywhere? Well the site's funniest version is to me anyway, Entendu à Montréal, "Overheard in Montreal" because, well I can imagine people around here saying those things...

I have laughed my ass off tonight reading those, anyone else has a good funny link to share?

I'm probably stuck up but this is ridiculous...

There's a show on the life channel here called "À deux c'est mieux", a psychologist specialized in couples does intervention with real life people.

I guess I'm stuck up because there is no way in hell I would ever go on television to talk about my marriage problem or in this specific case, my sexual issues.

What the fuck? The guy goes on TV because his sex life sucks because he's a 2 minute man, she won't make the first move! Hello???.....

This is television, what the hell are you doing discussing these intimate issues on television? I would never do such a thing. I'm all for therapy, help, discussing issues, just NOT on television. They are discussing these intimate things on freaking.

I'm just shocked, why are people like that? I know we're in 2007 , still, this exhibitionist mentality shocks me. Why is it okay for people, anyone to just not keep anything private? I'm a *TMI* girl, just with the right person. I believe boundaries, intimacy and privacy are important... Oh and just so you know, I don't need to know when watching a *regular* channel at 18h30 who ejaculates in a matter of second and who doesn't. I don't want to know these *TMI* details about freaking strangers. Eww!!!

I'm very open minded, I'm someone who shares, discuss issues. I don't hide in the sand but it puzzles me to see this mentality of putting for everyone to see the details of your privacy, intimacy is just unbelievably weird... Boundaries guys, boundaries!!!

They weren't speaking generally, they were on television discussing their sexual intimacy as a couple. I'm sure it's gonna help to put it where everyone will know. Make a lot of sense!

Would you go on television to discuss your sexual problems? Your marriage trouble? I wouldn't... Am I stuck up? Do you think it's a healthy thing to go on TV to discuss that type of issues? I'm puzzled by the television because in real life, I wouldn't mind discussing private stuff, to the right person but I'm just close to the mentality of showing everything on TV.

Let's discuss this, shall we?

Guess who's the weirdo listening to Christmas music?

I am... I've been listening to Christmas music all afternoon!!! I'm such a weirdo!!! I'm addicted to a song Called "Noël à Jérusalem" or "Christmas at Jerusalem" by Mario Pelchat, a french Canadian singer...

Anyway, I'm trying to get in a Christmas mood!!! I need to decorate my blog!!!! Talk to you all later!

Stolen from The Gal Herself....

I stole this from One Gal's Musings...You can steal it from me too!!!

Completely, Ridiculously Random

What is the single largest item in your house? Bed
How well can you write your name with your non dominant hand? Not well at all
What color is your bedroom? white
What type of computer mouse do you use? a optical mouse and the typepad
What is your earliest memory? I was about 2 years old...
Have you ever jumped off of a high dive? No
Do you take vitamins? Nope
Do you like to color inside the lines? At times
What do you have set as your home page? My blog but before it was Google
Do you have your own radio? Nope
Where would you hate to have to work? Funeral Home
Who is on your speed dial? No one at home, at work plenty of people.
Do you prefer lightbulbs or candles? Depends, for light bulbs, for the feeling; candles.
How much money did you spend today? More than 400$ I paid for my glasses, the insurance company will pay me back.
What are you sitting on right now? Couch
Do you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces? Yes
Would you ever get plastic surgery? No
Did you play with shaving cream when you were a kid? Yes
How big is your bed? Double bed
Do you like the smell of axe? I don't know What the heck is this?
What is your favorite flavor of lifesavers? I don't eat them
Have you ever seen a volcano? Yes, but it wasn't active. Hadn't been in many hundred of hours.
What is the best halloween costume you have ever worn? Lawyer
What kind of soap do you use? liquid soap, vanilla flavored (most of the time)
Can you snowboard? No and have no desire to
How many icons do you have on your desktop? Many
What is the biggest amount of money you have ever had at one time? what ya mean? Had as a gift? Had in my hands???
Do you understand how telephones work? Can I dial it? Yes. Do I understand the inner workings, or the satellite towers, etc.? No.
Do you write notes on your body? No
What is the prominent color in your closet? Green and black and brown
What is sitting next to you right now?nobody, Mr.Cat is on another chair.
Do you believe in lots of conspiracies? No
Do you own any really old video game systems? No
Are you good at baking? Kinda
Have you ever made your own clothing? No
How many doors does your house have? 1 (it's 2 bedrooms apartment)
Do you prefer tootsie pops or blow pops? None
Do you sneak into movie theatres? No
Are you a really fast text messager? No
Do you have anything you keep on you 24/7? Yeah, my mind's on 24/7 ;)
Do you usually write in print or in cursive? Depends
What was your first job? Babysitting
Do you prefer crushed ice or cubed? Cubes
What print is on your plates or cups in your kitchen? White stoneware
Have you ever made a mixed cd for someone? Yes
What do you want to buy from an infomercial? not really
Do you believe that animals have souls? Yes and no... I'm not sure about this...
What word/phrase do you find really annoying? "Life is not fair"
Do you have a lava lamp or a black light? No
Do you find yourself not having enough electrical outlets? Not anymore, I bought multiple outlets.
What is the longest you can wait patiently? With my MP3 player -- forever; without it -- 15 minutes
Have you ever been under anesthesia? Yes
Are your fingernails long or short? Short but not bitten, can't keep 'em long.
Are you afraid of bright colors? No
Has anyone ever accused you of being gay? Nope
Can you tell people honest things to their face? Yes
Would you rather eat grits or oatmeal? Oatmeal, dunno what grits is.
Do you own a kite? No
Have you ever run down and up escalator or vice versa? No
What do you think of clothing for pets? Ugly and stupid, I roll my eyes when I see someone with an animal who wears clothes.
Do you tend to want things you cannot have? A little but not so much.
Is it true that you can be anything you want to be? Yes it is
Were your parents honest to you about serious things when you were little? Totally., I wasn't sugar coated.
Would you ever dye your hair purple? I did when I was 14 years old. I wouldn't do it now because I wouldn't want to lose my job.
Who do you think should play you in a movie? Never thought about it...
Would you ever kill someone? I wouldn't actually DO it but I've thought about it in the past. But thinking and acting out are two different things... It is OK to express anger and pain just not to act out of these emotions.
Do you prefer stripes or polka dots? striped but vertical but horizontal...
Do you dot your is and cross your ts? Yup
Are you double jointed in any way? HUH?
What kind of super power do you wish you had? Flying and reading in people's mind.
Are you easily offended?Not enough
How often do you watch the news? Constantly
Do you have nightmares very much? Not anymore, I use to...
Which power ranger was your favorite? Don't remember any of them
Did the movie Jaws ever scare you? Nope, didn't watch it as a young kid
Have you ever cried to get away with something? No
What do you think of feminists? Well, I am one, so I can't be objective
Are you friends with anyone famous? No
Do you lack common sense sometimes? only when I'm PMSing
Are you afraid of snakes? Hell freaking yes!
Do you use recycle bins at your house? Nope, it's a PITA when you live in an apartment here.
How hot do you like the water in your shower? Closer to hot than warm
Do you ever walk around your house naked? All the time
What is your favorite art form? Words
Do you want to be bilingual? I am, I speak both french and English
Is energy wasted on little kids? No
Do you lie to make people feel better? No
How many times a day do you look at the clock? A million?
Do you like to organize things? Yes, I'm a freak!!!
Are you going to have smile lines or frown lines when you're older? Smile line ALL the way baby!!!
Do you floss your teeth every day? Yes
Do you like the game red rover? No
Which is better, thick crust or thin? Thin
How good are you at keeping secrets? Yes
What stupid little thing really stresses you out? Waiting for the freaking bus
Can you remember what you wore yesterday? Yes, dark brown pants with a white blouse, a necklace , brown socks and undies.
Which Disney parks have you been to? None
What do you think the drinking age should be? 18
Do you like to wear socks? Sure
What is the last cartoon you watched? The Simpson's this week I think...
What does your bed comforter look like? I have 3 comforters, 2 are kinda peach, the other one is leopard!!!

Random stuff from from the weekend

Saturday night, 21h23 as I'm writing this, I'm on my couch in my jammies, cozy and relaxed. I honestly couldn't wish for anything better. I've spend the evening last night at home, chilling, doing nothing except watch TV, be on the net and read. The week was good but tiresome (is that a word?) I finished my 5Th week at Big Multinational Company and I love it. I feel independent now and I still have plenty to learn but things couldn't be better because it's going well. Coworkers are nice, helpful, funny, we're a team. I love what I do and I'm good at it. My trainer is great (The Cute Friend), yeah, I'm working with a friend, and it is awesome.

So today I got up around 10h00, had breakfast then met with The Mother at The Mall in Bigger City. We had coffee, shopped, had a nice time. I had an appointment with the eye doctor at 15h00, it'd been close to 2 years since my last. The eye doctor was nice, I picked up new glasses and I can't wait to get the call to pick 'em up. This was a new clinic for me because my regular one wouldn't give me an appointment for evening or weekend in the next weeks. Screw that, I wanted one fast. So the new clinic will be mine as of today.

I bought O the Oprah Magazine for the first time, I hesitated between this one and People.

I got home for dinner and cooked for the next week, I'm very structured eh? Someone at work said he admired my structure and dedication to follow whatever I believe and it's true that I am a committed person to follow my goals.

For what it's worth, I realise that I have been less stressed in the past month that I was in the last year. This new job is really positive for me. I am not so tense and I have less symptoms of stress-related thingies. (acid reflux, stomach ache and other things) This is just great!!!

Next weekend is gonna be busy, on Saturday I have a Christmas party, my department at work is getting reunited at The Cute Friend's house for a dinner and an evening. On Sunday, it's the parishioner's annual meeting and the election for the church council. I'm running for the one of the position available (2 seats are available at the moment) and be the only woman on the council at the moment. It would be with TFB, AF, The Tall Friend, The Retiree and other great men that I've just never blogged about. Wish me luck !!!

So that's my weekend, I've got some plans for next week and I plan to visit my friends so get ready for my visit to your fantastic blogs!!! BTW is any of my reader wants me to link then in my blogroll, drop me a note and I'll add ya!

Thirteen random facts about me and my life...

Sorry guys, this isn't the most interesting TT you'll get eh?

1. I wear makeup everyday. without foundation and power, I wouldn't get out of the house.

2. My laugh is contagious and very characteristic of me!!!!

3. I've missed most of my 2 last year of high school. My grades were super and I didn't give shit. I skipped 80% of my 2 last years and got my diploma with A grades.

4. People who smell like sweat, you know transpiration, disgust me... It's totally unappealing for me. If you smell like this, get out of my way

5. If I hear someone puke, it makes me gag!!!

6. I hate creepy-crawly bugs, I hate insects!!!! Ouache!!!

7. I hate, hate going to the dentist....

8. The most sensitive part of my body is the inside of my neck, having my inner neck kissed or licked is a big turn-on... It really is. :::grrrr::::

9. I like to be cuddled... It's a been a long time tho....

10. I wear glasses and I'm going to the eye doctor for an exam and get new glasses (in a matter of 2 weeks)

11. I give blood every time I can... I am due now...

12. There's not many things I wouldn't do for a million dollars.

13. I hate strangers touching me... and they usually can feel it

So that was my Thursday Thirteen! Not bad for someone who wasn't inspired eh?

Today's slice of life is about "letting go"!

Yeah, I'm making the most of my online time. So here's a lot of information about letting go. Lemme know if it was useful, what you think, how you see the act of letting go!

Letting go takes love, for ourselves. It takes time and most important, it takes patience.

From this link:

"What is Letting Go?"

To "let go" does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.

To "let go" is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.

To "let go" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.

To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.

To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To "let go" is not to be in the middle, arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.

To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To "let go" is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To "let go" is to fear less and to love more.

— Author Unknown

I use to believe this 100% "I should be in control of everything that is important in my life."


Unfortunately you are powerless to control most people, places, and things in your life since you can only be fully in control of your internal locus of control and your own thoughts, emotions, and actions.

I now understand and accept this: My Internal Locus of Control:

Internal locus of control is giving yourself the power to influence your feelings about yourself.

Internal locus of control places self-approval, self-recognition, self-acceptance, self-reinforcement, and self-affirmation of worth into your own hands. In this way it is only up to you and your own efforts at self-love and care to feel worthwhile, valuable, competent, skillful, creative, knowledgeable, and capable of living your life for yourself and not controlled by others. You are then fully responsible for your own thinking, emotions, and actions in life.

Are you good at letting go? Are you able to let go when you are preoccupied? Letting go and doing 100% of what we can do is the key IMO... I remind myself daily to "Let go and Let God" mrgreen Letting go is accepting that I can't control everything... and it is true... It's not always a fun realisation but it's freaking life!!!! I control only what is really up to me. Do my best in everything, while remember what I can and what I can't do. What's on my shoulder and what shouldn't be...

Good God guys? Are you following me? Comments, insults, questions!!!!

Thoughts on freedom and random stuff!

I was talking with a friend of mine on the phone when I got home from work I actually ate while on the phone... We were talking about freedom among other things. The freedom to be ourselves, the freedom of knowing who we are and knowing
what we want, what we are worth, what are deal breakers in our life.

Why do some people sell themselves short to others? Why are some people insecure to the point of staying in bad relationship? I'm talking about people around us who have been through a lot and didn't understand the lesson, didn't learn from their mistakes and keep on selling themselves short to others.

I would like to have someone in my life but not at any cost. No fucking way!!! My intimacy, my boundaries are important. I will never put someone else ahead of me, I did it, wasn't worth it. lemme tell you, it was a real disaster...

So, have you learned to respect and love yourself? Would you compromise yourself for some love or companionship? Are you willing to let someone walk all over you? I am not and I think it's a damn good thing. My freedom matters more than anything...My freedom of being myself, of being happy, of doing whatever the hell I want...

Life's not an easy road but it's a damn fine one. On this, I had a great day at work, things were good, I hate Mondays because it's hard to get back in "working" mood after 2 days off but I survived. I always do.

I got very aggravated at the hair salon company that sold my hairdresser a flat iron this fall. The Piece Of Shit has never been working good, yesterday, it broke... I called my hair dresser this afternoon (she was sorry), she'll take it back next Monday and the company people will look at it and decide if it's my fault. I don't want an exchange, it is under warranty. I want the piece of shit gone and my money back. Hairdresser said they wouldn't reimburse and it would be long. I told her not to worry, I'll bring it back to her this week but meanwhile, I got a new one, a Gama one. It works great and it's going to give me what I want. If the hair salon company exchanges my old one for a new one, I'll take it and sell it. The POS was 80$, they didn't give it to me. So the new one cost over 130$ but at least it is working and if anything's wrong, I can deal with the store people directly. The hair salon doesn't deal with clients, they deal with hairdressers only.

WTF??? If I treated my clients like this company treated me, Big Multinational Company would fire me right away! They wouldn't keep someone who pisses off clients who pay for a product. Believe me, I won't even try it. The client is always right, even if he's wrong, he's right! Anyone who work for a in the public knows this and even more in a corporate environment, especially there.

Anyway, Miss No Nonsense girl, semi addicted to the computer said TFB on the phone tonight, he said he was joking , I'm not addicted but I do love the computer and Internet a whole freaking lot. He's right on this!!! Anyway, I'm tired, I'm sleepy!!! I need to rest!!!

If any of you guys want to share about freedom and stuff, it'd be interesting!!!

PS: Sorry for the rambling thoughts... If you lived with me, it'd be worse!

I'm it

The Gal Herself tagged me for the 7 Random and/or Weird Facts about Me meme.

1. As a child, I use to bite my toenails. I know, it's gross!!!

2. Men who are wearing suits turn me on, I think it's incredibly sexy.

3. I hate cleaning the freaking oven.

4. I wear earplugs to sleep, it's one of the thing that helps me to let go and relax enough to sleep.

5. I have a very strong voice and I could be in a horror movie. I can scream loud. Ask any of the little funny people at the parish who came too fast or behind my back.

6. I can't tolerate not shaving my underarms, the feeling of hair there creeps me out.

7. I'm a nervous person, I'm jumpy when people touch me except when it's people I really, really trust. Just so you know, on some occasion, I did screamed very loudly when someone came behind my back to hug me.

Now the rules:
1. Link to the person that tagged you, and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.


Julia
Claudia
April
Jehara
Izzybella
Vixen
Chelley

Good stuff eh?

As you guys know, life's been treating me good. I couldn't wish for a better life, I've got great friends, a good job, I love myself, I'm at peace with the past, I enjoy everything. Life's just good.

I do lack time tho, the weekdays are long and I have only enough for me. It's a routine of getting up, working, coming home and getting ready for the next day, sleeping, then going back to work. Except the nights I have plans. well duh!!!!

Last week I had a meeting with the church council, I take the notes, the secretary but it's actually just the note taker. Many of my friends are members of the council and I was asked "officially" this past week to join them and get elected at the parishioners meeting the first Sunday of December. I said yes, I wasn't sure at first because you know I'm very blunt and I dunno, I'd be happy to be a member and also the only woman of the council. These guys are great, most of them are my friends. I was touched and honoured by the request.

Anyway, I got the flu shot on Wednesday night, it was a pain in the ass to get an appointment, but I wanted to get it because I get sick easily, I've been getting the shot for the past 6 years I think and I wanted it. Anyone else getting the flu shot? It did kick my butt the next day, I felt like shit but I'm all better now.

So the week at work was great, busy, crazy busy but good. I would have tons of stories to tell you, I wish I could. But as of now, y'all can call me the B-Train girl. I should change my nickname to this.

Today, I got up a little before 10 am, which was surprising, cuz you know, I like to sleep late, I drank good coffee, worked on a document for the parish that The Friendly Boss (TFB) and I have been working on for 2 days. I wrote it, emailed it to him, he corrected it and I read his corrections this morning, added new stuff. We're a good team!!! So I did this, cleaned and did a bit of shredding of old papers. I had 2 boxes of old papers and TFB lend me his shredder to get rid of it I went with a friend to Bigger Town and we shopped. I needed many things at Walmart, went to my favorite store, dollar store, pharmacy and we went to mass at 16h00. AF's son was doing his first holy communion and it was a great celebration.

Did I say we had our first snow storm yesterday? And that it went on for the whole freaking day today also? It's over now but it's cold. YUCK!!!!!

So I cooked this evening a bit, I need to finish tomorrow. My house is clean, I'm sitting in my new jammies from my favorite store. They are so comfy, good god!!!! I'm just good, on my couch, with the TV on while I blog. How can life be better that this?

How was your week? How's life been treating you?

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13 things I thought about but didn't say out loud...

1. Did you?

"Nope I didn't, I didn't even get close to it. It would take a miracle"

2. Do you love me?

"I wish I did, I just can't let go and love you. I have tried, I just can't seem to fall in love with you"....

3. Was it good for you?

"I enjoyed it as much as a visit to the dentist. You couldn't tell huh????"

4. You are such a good kisser!!!

"Well big news for you, you don't! You are irritating my face with your freaking tongue. Keep that damn thing inside your mouth. You are NOT a puppie."

5. Are you going to vote for me?

"In your dreams dude, when hell freezes over!!!!"

6. Things will never change, life sucks, life's a bitch!

"Good grief, wonder why eh? With an attitude like that, no doubts life can be difficult...."

7. Can you do this?

"I can but the question is, are YOU gonna pay me?"

8. Do you love your church?

"Yeah, I love God, converted my life to him. It's the freaking Vatican I have issue with. "

9. What do you think of this?

"You don't want to know, I swear, you will regret asking me..."

10. How did you get through this?

"Dude, I survived and moved on because I don't spend time dwelling on things like this. There is no easy answer. It is called resillience, deal with it. Some people are stronger than others I guess eh?"

11. What would you do for a millions bucks???

"Dude, what wouldn't I do???"

12. What do you think of your "fantastic" mayor?

"Lets move on. Do I really have to support each and every one in their battles? NAH!!!!, I didn't think so."

13. Does celibacy and lack of sex bothers you?

"Lack of what??? And you are? How's that any of your business? "