John.He.Is

I'm sorry to jump in the political blogging but you guys have to watch this video. It is called "John.He.Is" it's about John Mc Cain's campaign, the video is inspired by Obama's song. It is very good... As you guys know, I'm Canadian but I still have an opinion.

The link to the John.He.Is video.. I swear you don't want my opinion on McCain. Or on Bush, for what it's worth. I do not speak about politics on this blog but this is something I feel comfortable doing today. I hope you guys don't hate me, because my political stance is not going to change.

Go Obama!!!

I should be sleeping by now....

I know, I'm so freaking bad. I just love staying late. I know I'm not getting up tomorrow morning. I was told that it takes at least 2 weeks of time away from work to relax and just forget about everything and it's right, I'm just 100% relaxed. I am not overwhelmed anymore with feelings of sadness and "un-worthiness", not at all.

I discovered the blog of someone I knew when I was a teen and young adult and I've been reading it almost all evening. I did spend quite a while on the phone with my friend The New Blogger (TTF's wife converted to blogging 2 weeks ago) You should have seen TTF's face when he learn his wife had a blog! That was fucking priceless, "What the heck did you do to my wife" "I swear, she asked me, I did NOT talk her into it, AT ALL.

And I also spoke briefly with TFB. We'll finish some work for The Parish tomorrow...I've been kinda dreading work with The Parish because things are a bit hectic, for some reasons, we seem to be facing some attitude issues and I'm kinda hot tempered and it takes a lot for me to let go and not lose it. Some people push my buttons more easily I should say. Luckily for me or unluckily for him, (it's a matter of perspective) TFB had a way of calming me down, always. There's some people who are able to get through us and just calm us down. He's one of those people but when you work HR, you've gotta be like that or you are a jerk. So hopefully things at La Parish will get back on track fast enough and I'm just going to take a chill pill and patiently wait.

I'll keep you up-to-date with everything.

A Sunday update

As to answer CQ' and Jenny's question. What degree will I take in college?

The degree I'm planning on taking is Bilingual Management, Accounting and Office Automation.

That's the one I'm going to be scheduled for an interview before the end of febuary.

If I don't get it, there's one that looks a little more interesting and it's Bilingual Office management. It includes the same classes as the previous one but about 300 more hours of management classes. That was my favorite one but I just couldn't see myself wait until August when the classes would start. But I would have like the management classes because I see myself in some type on manager position one day. We shall see...

Where I'm from, College is different that University. It's 2 different systems. There's pre-university programs in college like humanities, sciences and litterature. The others are mostly technical college degree. Nursing, all type of physical therapist, medical technician, Accounting technician, Administrative technician and so on. In University you get a Bac or a Master degree or an Doctorat. Does it make any sense? After you graduate from college you either have a DEC (Diploma of College Studies) or an AEC (Attestation of College Studies)

Cross your fingers for me? I don't have a problem with the bilingual part but in my area, people who speak both french and english are on demand. I can't wait!!!!!

I had a quiet weekend, rest, relaxed a lot. I'm okay and sleepy!!!!!!

Hope everyone is well!

BTW, the email I sent the company I interviewed for on Thursday must have been received because they didn't contact me on Friday. They are on the Sunday paper because the job hasn't been filled yet. (NOT my problem)

So, I send them an email.

I was absolutly convinced that the position I interviewed for this morning was not for me, and after a short talk with TFB, I send 'em an email. He has a lot of experience in employment the field and he told me it's always best to let a potential employer them know when we withdraw our name for the position when there's no interest. As The Gal Herself made me realise, even if they had an opening in the customer service, it wouldn't be that interesting. The fucking commute would still be close to 2 hours and they wouldn't pay me like Big Multinational Company did.

So I inspired my email from this letter I found online. I used an email because that's the information posted on the employement website.

2000 Very cold street
God forsaken Canada
XXX XXX

Febuary 7th 2008

Mr. The man who interviewed me
His Title
Company Name
Adress


Dear Mr. Interviewer,

I would like to thank you for interviewing me for the XXX position. Unfortunately, I must withdraw my name from the list of applicants.

Thank you for considering me for this position.

Sincerely,

No Nonsense Girl

This girl is going back to college! :::::I'm doin' the happy dance::::: Honest to God, I can't wait to have the interview to get in the intensive program. I'm very very excited. As for the rest, I'm OK and happy in my decision. I had a great time with The Tall Friend's wife and kids at dinner time and doin' homework with them. This is time well spent because it's good for the soul.

I miss my co-workers from Big Multinational Company, I miss 'em dearly. Life goes on eh? So what's up with you guys?

A short update

Well it's not going to be a long update and I don't feel very articulate but well. The interview went well , the 2 interviewers were nice but after reflection, but I don't feel enough qualified for the job and I don't think this is a good fit for me.

It's a very nice company but I feel underqualified and I don't think it's for me. They told me they were going to let me know tomorrow because they had other interviews this afternoon.

I hope I do not get it because I'll decline. It's OK to say no to a job offer, I just do not feel this is a good match for me. The commute would take forever, I'd have to leave around 6 AM to be at the office at 8h00 AM, and I lack some qualification and there's a gut feeling that says "This is just not for you". I'm going to listen to this.

I still am willing to discuss this with friends and I need to to feel confident in my decision. I don't think it's smart to accept a job offer that you don't really want. It would be a PITA for the company and for me to have them train me and invest in me if I already know I wouldn't be happy there eh? I'm trying to be smart here and also respect myself.

How should I do this? Should I email 'em today to thank them but let them know the position doesn't interest me but if they had openings with customer services I'd be more than willing?

Let me know!

Life is moving fast but here's an update...

Yeah, it's just strange, life's fast, life is surprising, life is life eh?

It's moving on pretty fast, it always does. I got caught again. I know you don't know this but I'm a control freak. I plan everything in MY life, I want to control everything because I'm insecure. That's what insecure people do, they plan, schedule, control, look ahead. Have a plan a, b, c and d, just in case, not to end up screwed. I'm a planner, it's almost ridiculous. I always get caught because I can't control everything, there are soo many thing under my control.

Anyways, I had a great meeting for my resume on Monday, I also decided to get my ass back in college. I picked an interesting degree, intensive program, starting in the beginning of March. I called on tuesday, there was still opening places, so I could get in with an interview. If I was able to get the program funded by some type of grants.

Tuesday afternoon, I went to my hairdresser (she BTW did a magnificent job, I feel beautiful and I am. After my appointment, I stopped at the local employment office, I completed my inscription and met with some agent. He was very nice, I gave him my resume, gave him the information on the intensive program I wanted to get in and asked him if I could get in the program that is some type of grants. (I receive unemployment for the time I have, as many week as possible. They pay for the tuition, books, inscription, everything and gave me a transportation allowance. If my unemployment ends before the end of the degree, they gave me a weekly allowance to survive while in college.

He accepted me in the program and I could get in fucking college, at no fucking cost. The program is available to everyone who has unemployment without a specific degree or to get a new career. My studies were in humanities in college, that's not much, plus I don't even have the fucking dimploma because I just wasn't able to complete the course 10 years ago.

Anyway, he accepted me. So this morning I went to Bigger City, at the college and I got a record of my grade's in college because I needed it for the interview to get in the intensive college program. I also ordered a copy of my high school diploma because I lost it. For God's sake, I got it in 1994, that was a freaking long time ago.

I get home at 12h10 PM today, I see on my caller ID "X company", they didn't leave a message. It's one of the company I applied for a job last week. At 12h20 I was on the phone with The Nurse and I have a line, so I put her on hold and guess what? It's the financial manager of that company and he asks me for an interview tomorrow morning at 10h30. I agreed to it and told him I look forward in meeting him.

I was shocked, I was beside myself. I had chosen plan B because I was sick of waiting for call back from the jobs I applied on and I get a call.

Once again, it's a great lesson to teach me I do NOT control everything. I know I don't, but at the same time, I always believe I do. I'm going to go with TFB, it's in Bigger City, I'm excited, a bit stressed but at the same time, I'm very very happy and will do my best.

Ain't that strange, how we think we are in charge but are not?

Today is also Ash wednesday, I haven't ate meat yet, it's a day to fast, to abstain from meat, no alcohol and no sex! not that I have sex anyway. While we are talking about lent, last night at the Church council meeting, we talked briefly about lent, The Parish priest said we oughta give up sweets and chocolate, I had to bite my tongue to tell him when he asked me if I was going to give that up "No dear, this year I'm going to abstain from sex. It's not going to be easy but I can do it! It's funny because you can't give up something you don't have or do eh?

Please, think of me tomorrow at 10h30. Thanks soo much!

It's Sunday night and I'm sitting here all quiet

and in a good mood. I had a good day overall, breakfast was very good, it was a nice time. It always is and then I was quiet at home. Spoke with friends, watched TV a bit and just wrote, worked on some stuff for The Parish.

I have an appointment tomorrow with a friend who's going to help me with my resume and re-work on my presentation letter. There's a job I will apply on tomorrow and I'm also going to go donate blood. I will be going to my hairdresser on tuesday, I'll be getting a haircut and maybe some highlights, we shall see. I want to feel pretty , I need to boost my confidence, I really wanna feel pretty. Going to the hair salon always help me. I think it's typical to us women that this is just something that makes us feel pretty. What do guys do to feel hot or sexy? I have enough sexy underwear for a while, thanks to Claudia. I think a haircut will be beneficial. Plus, when I'll have a job interview, I won't show 'em my ass.

Plus on tuesday night is the meeting for the church council. I'm baking my guys some carrot muffins and I'll bring chocolate truffles.

Have a great week guys!

This girl has changed her mind...

I went to mass, it was OK. I was kinda tired, I stayed after to chat with a friend, please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.

Tomorrow I'm going to eat brunch with TFB and SW and I'll be resting and relaxing.

It's Friday night

and it feels like it's not. I am not in a "relaxed" mood because I haven't done much in the week. I have been sleeping later in the morning, put my alarm at 8h00 at first, then 9h30, this morning I got up at 9h30 to only go back to bed until 11h30. Yeah, you heard me right, I slept until fucking 11h30 AM on a weekday. I'm lazy, I feel lazy but damn, my body needed the sleep.

I only got out to go to the pharmacy to photocopy a paper I have to send the unemployment office and I stopped at the grocery store. That's it. I got back home, in my jammies.

I applied on a job late this afternoon as soon as it was published. I'm checking these website at least 150 times a day. I will get a new job soon.

I hope you guys will have a great weekend!

Anyone who wants to "save" me?

I gave myself a severe headache, it's my own fault, I know. I'm trying to set up a website for The Parish. I've got the page up, it's hosted by my Internet Provider. It's blank but whatever. I have my FTP server username and password, I have a licensed copy of Dreamweaver but for God's sake, I can't seem to be able to transfer what I do to the actual server.

Can someone save me and help me out? Pretty please with a cherry on top? I suck at this website design thingy. I've set up a fantastic blog for The Parish, it's up and running and it's cute. The webdesign thingy is just beyond my knowledge. I'm driving myself crazy, help me please????

SOS!!!!

13 pet peeves...

After a few weeks of break, here's my return...

Thirteen Things Pet Peeves



1…. Not Washing Hands After Using the Restroom.. (that seriously creeps me out)

2. Bad Service at a Restaurant ( WTF is up with that, who am I? Did you wanted a tip?)

3. Poor Driving Etiquette (Please, follow the freaking rules)

4. Hypocrites (self explanatory)

5. Getting “their” and “they’re”, or “you’re” and “your” mixed up. (please work on your grammar, it's AAF)

6. Qualifying offensive statements with: “No offence, but…."

7. People who withdraw money from the ATM, then take 5 minutes to count all the money, review their statement, put stuff back in their bag. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY.

8. People assuming that they know you when they don't.

9. People who spit in public (ewww what the hell???)

10. The saying "You've no need to worry if you're not doing anything wrong."

11. Mumbling, then saying "Forget it!" when people naturally don't hear.

12. People who think the whole world owes them.

13. People who smoke inside of the bus cabin. (Hello???)

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Just a short update

Forgive me my friends for being so self-centered these days. I feel I've nothing fun to blog about, I almost loathe myself because of the fact that I am unemployed. I feel my potential is wasted, who am I if I'm not working? It's not such a good feeling, I know it's a wee bit ridiculous, I've paid so much in the unemployment fund through my taxes while working, I didn't quit my job, I was laid off because my employer isn't doing well because of the crisis in that industry. I was told over and over again how amazing I was, how professional I am, how much I'm worth as a person and as an employee.

So what the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I feel so worthless? I need to get a grip. I need to let go of being a perfectionist because at the moment I'm not helping myself because I am pushing on myself these feeling of worthlessness. Honest to God, I know I need to get a grip. I wrote The Friendly Boss (TFB) a long email yesterday inside of which I told him about this. I'm aware of this, means I should move on eh?

My self worth is linked to what I do, that I get but I am still me. I am still the hard worker, motivated, happy I'm the professional, that didn't change. I am still ME. I will get myself a fabulous job soon. I will get back to a place I need to be at. But for the moment I need to relax a bit, I need to not be so hard on myself. I'm driving myself crazy. I'm not saying this to convince any of you guys, it's to help it sink in in my head.

I went to the meeting I had for the organisation I'm a member of and even tho I didn't feel like it, even tho I wish I didn't had to go, I went and I'm glad I did. People were nice, it was interesting and I felt I was important, It helped me feel better, it made me feel useful. Like when I got home tonight from a nice evening at The Tall Friend (TTF) and his wife (I'm sorry sweetie, you are going to have to help me find a nickname for you) I had a message on my answering machine from my dear Sweet Wife (SW). She needs my help for something and I was soo happy to say yes, not just because I love her and TFB dearly, not just because I would do anything for my friends (which is true) but very much because it's going to make me feel useful. I will be useful, how fucking beautiful is this?

I made chocolate truffle when I got home tonight (well the ganache part) and I will roll them tomorrow. I also baked brownies for the meeting I have tomorrow night. I'm doing all of this to feel better and it's helping. Tomorrow is a new day, tomorrow will be a great day. I'm going to be looking for a job, I'll go to TFB and SW's house in the afternoon and will have dinner there and I've got a meeting in the evening.

What else? I've worked on the Parish's application to get a student program this summer, it needs to be well composed so we'll get the student and the money to pay him/her.

Have a great night and take all care... Thanks for bearing with me!

PS: I had lunch with my former HR director and it was very nice, she was sweet and fun and caring. We had a great time. She did pay for lunch too. I am glad we had lunch together...

It's Monday, I don't have much to say but here's an update.

It's true, I will be pretty boring because I don't have much to say, my life's not so glamorous these days. Anyway, I went to the unemployment office this morning, what a humility lesson this was, it was my first time in such office. I felt like shit in the first few minutes but OK after all. Luckily So they will be treating my case in the next 35 days, that's as long as it takes to receive your first check. What do people who don't have any money aside do? I guess the system doesn't give a flying shit.

Before I left this morning I called to enroll again to the Province prescription drug insurance, after waiting 15 minutes on hold, I spoke with someone and within 2 minutes, was enrolled again.

I spend most of my afternoon looking at jobs online, I send 3 application for jobs, send an email to a company I send my resume to on Friday to just let 'em know I'm interested in the position and would like to join them.

I also exchanged emails with my former human resources manager at Big Multinational Company (BMC) we are going for lunch tomorrow. As I've said before, that woman is a rock, if I had 50% of her assurance, I'd move mountains. I need to get as confident, I need to have that inner drive. She's an inspiration for me and I told her in a card last week.

Other than that I've got a meeting tomorrow during dinner, I'm on the board of council of a public organisation (how to make and manage a budget conferences and activities for the low income, debts counsel, taxes for people with low income, it's a good organisation) and the monthly meeting is tomorrow. I don't feel like going. If I was listening to myself I would just quit. Anyway this is a volunteer thing. I'm one of the few members of their council. It gives me nothing at the moment. I know, I'm going to shut up and go and pretend to be interested. For some reason I don't feel like giving everyone.

It's not a matter of energy because there's a parish meeting for some members of the church council on Wednesday and I'm interested in going and I know it's important. I just don't care about the other one. I'm mean eh?

Ialso emailed The Friendly Boss (TFB), I wanted to tell him about my day, get news from him and his dear wife, I wanted to vent about the fact that I'm a perfectionist and it's a great thing on the workplace but it's something that's drivin' me batty in my life (intimate). I am so demanding of myself, I'm sometimes my worse enemy. Who here is a perfectionist? Who here is driving herself crazy with that?

What's up with you guys?

Little bits of everything from the weekend...

Well, the weekend after all was fun. I did relax on Friday night... Saturday I grocery shopped, cooked and cleaned, I even went to mass again. Two weeks in a row, I'm good eh? and it was OK. Then today I went with TFB and SW to the restaurant for a late breakfast, that too was very very nice. These two people are awesome, I know I've talked about them before but I am truly blessed to have 'em in my life. They are lucky to have me in their life also, I'm good, I'm nice, I'm fun.

This afternoon The Young Priest (TYP) and I went for a walk, it was 20 below zero but it was nice, we stopped for a coffee, then at the parish's office to fix some stuff for the confirmation camp (which I'm not doing anymore)... Then what? I relaxed, watched TV, I was lazy.

I'm going to the unemployment office tomorrow morning, then I need to call the stupid province med insurance to subscribe again because my ins at BMC isn't valid anymore. The province insurance costs a lot and doesn't give you a lot. Cost a lot if you are working or are unemployed or whatever but not if you are on welfare, because after all, people on welfare deserve everything here. Whatever!!!! I had this insurance when working for The Parish because ins wasn't offered, it costs a lot every month for not much.

Anyway, I'll be applying for jobs, waiting to have news from the jobs I'm applied on. Wish me luck!!!! I'll be active, motivated, I'll be me.

Thanks everyone who's sending me prayers, positive thoughts and all. I love you!

It is over, it's a new beginning...

Well my job at Big Multinational Company (BMC) ended at 15h30 this afternoon. I'm now unemployed... This isn't going to be for long tho, I'm going to find something, I'm not worried about it. It just sucks that I've lost my job but it's not because I'm not competent enough. If that makes sense.

Yesterday the company held a cocktail party, it was fun, people were nice, food was great. They offered us a present, I received a gift certificate. I thought it was a nice attention to have... I also scheduled a lunch with my human resources manager. She's a very cool person, a strong woman, someone I've come to admire, respect and like a lot. So we're havin' lunch in town this coming Tuesday.

So today, I worked all morning, my team and I went to lunch together, we invited 2 people to join is, the IT department people. Lunch was a treat from my boss at the plant, I came back at the office, took care of one last thing... I called some of our rep, went to see a lot of people to say goodbye and I left with one of the director at 15h30.

I'm home, I took a warm bath when I got here, got into my jammies (I know I'm predictable) and ate dinner... I turned down an invitation because I needed some time with myself. I had a phone talk with SW and TFB, I have sent a resume and a presentation letter for a job in customer service. That's something I like and I'm good at it.

so we shall see. On Monday morning I'll be going to the unemployment office to at least have my case open and we'll see for the rest...

Have a great weekend!!!!

I'd do a Thursday 13...

But I'm too tired, sick and whiny but I'll post this for everyone to read. I wrote this in a farewell card I'm going to give my human resource manager.


Old Irish Blessing

May the road rise to meet you:
May the wind be always at your back,
The sun shine warm upon your face,
The rain fall soft upon your fields,
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.


I'm going to keep you guys up to date with everything.

It's tuesday night and I'm sick with a cold....

I feel like utter shit, all day sick with a bad cold, I've been a bit sick but crap today? I felt like I was hit by a fucking B-Train.

At 9h30 I call our guy in charge of shipping and begged him for some pills, decongestant or something. He had Sudafed, I almost ran to his department to get the pill. I took it and felt better until 15h00 when the effect was gone. Shit, for 2 hours I sneezed, coughed and blew my nose who was very stuffed. Anyway, I bought decongestant and lozenges, I just took 1 pill with 2 Benadryl to be able to sleep because pseudo-ephedrine makes me hyper.

Anyway, I felt sick, my throat hurts, my glands are swollen, my nose is stuffed and I have to come out to let all of you guys know. It's an important truth, something you need to know and that you'd know if you knew me IRL.

I'm a whiny baby when I'm sick, I'm really whiny and needy and wish someone would/could cook for me, fix me food and take care of me. I'm usually the one who takes care but when I'm sick, for God's sake, I'm whiny.

How's everyone? I had an OK day at work, tomorrow will be better and busier. This evening I spoke with The Passionate One and then called The Friendly Boss (TFB) because I'd gotten an email from him early in the evening and wanted to touch base with him. We spent 2 hours on the phone trying to fix his wireless connection with his router. Needless to say we didn't fix the problem BUT we had a nice talk, we chatted and laughed. It was relaxing.. I hadn't planned to stay on the phone with him 2 hours but it was a pleasure to do so. The man's always there when I need him, always, he comes or listens.

We didn't fix the problem but I found a solution. I email a friend of The Father, he's a computer technician, he's a genius. He's the one who help me with my router, so he'll help TFB for sure tomorrow. He already replied to my email saying "Tell him to call me at that time".

So, I'd stay online longer but I've gotta work tomorrow. Even if it's my last week, I still need to be good, professional and work hard. I have told my team to use me for the days left "I said guys, I'm available, anything you want, I'll do the calculation on anything, explain what needs to be done and I'll do it. Use my potential please, I want to, use me" and they've agreed to it. I'll be helpful, there's nothing worse for someone like me not to be used at our full potential if that makes sense.

Thursday, the company is throwing a 5-7 in a bar in Bigger City to celebrate my departure and 2 others. I'll be going. When they asked me if I agreed to it I said yes, but that made me a bit sad, because I'm actually going to be leaving on Friday.

Hope you guys are well!!!