Today's slice of life is about "letting go"!

Yeah, I'm making the most of my online time. So here's a lot of information about letting go. Lemme know if it was useful, what you think, how you see the act of letting go!

Letting go takes love, for ourselves. It takes time and most important, it takes patience.

From this link:

"What is Letting Go?"

To "let go" does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.

To "let go" is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.

To "let go" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.

To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.

To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To "let go" is not to be in the middle, arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.

To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To "let go" is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To "let go" is to fear less and to love more.

— Author Unknown

I use to believe this 100% "I should be in control of everything that is important in my life."


Unfortunately you are powerless to control most people, places, and things in your life since you can only be fully in control of your internal locus of control and your own thoughts, emotions, and actions.

I now understand and accept this: My Internal Locus of Control:

Internal locus of control is giving yourself the power to influence your feelings about yourself.

Internal locus of control places self-approval, self-recognition, self-acceptance, self-reinforcement, and self-affirmation of worth into your own hands. In this way it is only up to you and your own efforts at self-love and care to feel worthwhile, valuable, competent, skillful, creative, knowledgeable, and capable of living your life for yourself and not controlled by others. You are then fully responsible for your own thinking, emotions, and actions in life.

Are you good at letting go? Are you able to let go when you are preoccupied? Letting go and doing 100% of what we can do is the key IMO... I remind myself daily to "Let go and Let God" mrgreen Letting go is accepting that I can't control everything... and it is true... It's not always a fun realisation but it's freaking life!!!! I control only what is really up to me. Do my best in everything, while remember what I can and what I can't do. What's on my shoulder and what shouldn't be...

Good God guys? Are you following me? Comments, insults, questions!!!!

Thoughts on freedom and random stuff!

I was talking with a friend of mine on the phone when I got home from work I actually ate while on the phone... We were talking about freedom among other things. The freedom to be ourselves, the freedom of knowing who we are and knowing
what we want, what we are worth, what are deal breakers in our life.

Why do some people sell themselves short to others? Why are some people insecure to the point of staying in bad relationship? I'm talking about people around us who have been through a lot and didn't understand the lesson, didn't learn from their mistakes and keep on selling themselves short to others.

I would like to have someone in my life but not at any cost. No fucking way!!! My intimacy, my boundaries are important. I will never put someone else ahead of me, I did it, wasn't worth it. lemme tell you, it was a real disaster...

So, have you learned to respect and love yourself? Would you compromise yourself for some love or companionship? Are you willing to let someone walk all over you? I am not and I think it's a damn good thing. My freedom matters more than anything...My freedom of being myself, of being happy, of doing whatever the hell I want...

Life's not an easy road but it's a damn fine one. On this, I had a great day at work, things were good, I hate Mondays because it's hard to get back in "working" mood after 2 days off but I survived. I always do.

I got very aggravated at the hair salon company that sold my hairdresser a flat iron this fall. The Piece Of Shit has never been working good, yesterday, it broke... I called my hair dresser this afternoon (she was sorry), she'll take it back next Monday and the company people will look at it and decide if it's my fault. I don't want an exchange, it is under warranty. I want the piece of shit gone and my money back. Hairdresser said they wouldn't reimburse and it would be long. I told her not to worry, I'll bring it back to her this week but meanwhile, I got a new one, a Gama one. It works great and it's going to give me what I want. If the hair salon company exchanges my old one for a new one, I'll take it and sell it. The POS was 80$, they didn't give it to me. So the new one cost over 130$ but at least it is working and if anything's wrong, I can deal with the store people directly. The hair salon doesn't deal with clients, they deal with hairdressers only.

WTF??? If I treated my clients like this company treated me, Big Multinational Company would fire me right away! They wouldn't keep someone who pisses off clients who pay for a product. Believe me, I won't even try it. The client is always right, even if he's wrong, he's right! Anyone who work for a in the public knows this and even more in a corporate environment, especially there.

Anyway, Miss No Nonsense girl, semi addicted to the computer said TFB on the phone tonight, he said he was joking , I'm not addicted but I do love the computer and Internet a whole freaking lot. He's right on this!!! Anyway, I'm tired, I'm sleepy!!! I need to rest!!!

If any of you guys want to share about freedom and stuff, it'd be interesting!!!

PS: Sorry for the rambling thoughts... If you lived with me, it'd be worse!

I'm it

The Gal Herself tagged me for the 7 Random and/or Weird Facts about Me meme.

1. As a child, I use to bite my toenails. I know, it's gross!!!

2. Men who are wearing suits turn me on, I think it's incredibly sexy.

3. I hate cleaning the freaking oven.

4. I wear earplugs to sleep, it's one of the thing that helps me to let go and relax enough to sleep.

5. I have a very strong voice and I could be in a horror movie. I can scream loud. Ask any of the little funny people at the parish who came too fast or behind my back.

6. I can't tolerate not shaving my underarms, the feeling of hair there creeps me out.

7. I'm a nervous person, I'm jumpy when people touch me except when it's people I really, really trust. Just so you know, on some occasion, I did screamed very loudly when someone came behind my back to hug me.

Now the rules:
1. Link to the person that tagged you, and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.


Julia
Claudia
April
Jehara
Izzybella
Vixen
Chelley

Good stuff eh?

As you guys know, life's been treating me good. I couldn't wish for a better life, I've got great friends, a good job, I love myself, I'm at peace with the past, I enjoy everything. Life's just good.

I do lack time tho, the weekdays are long and I have only enough for me. It's a routine of getting up, working, coming home and getting ready for the next day, sleeping, then going back to work. Except the nights I have plans. well duh!!!!

Last week I had a meeting with the church council, I take the notes, the secretary but it's actually just the note taker. Many of my friends are members of the council and I was asked "officially" this past week to join them and get elected at the parishioners meeting the first Sunday of December. I said yes, I wasn't sure at first because you know I'm very blunt and I dunno, I'd be happy to be a member and also the only woman of the council. These guys are great, most of them are my friends. I was touched and honoured by the request.

Anyway, I got the flu shot on Wednesday night, it was a pain in the ass to get an appointment, but I wanted to get it because I get sick easily, I've been getting the shot for the past 6 years I think and I wanted it. Anyone else getting the flu shot? It did kick my butt the next day, I felt like shit but I'm all better now.

So the week at work was great, busy, crazy busy but good. I would have tons of stories to tell you, I wish I could. But as of now, y'all can call me the B-Train girl. I should change my nickname to this.

Today, I got up a little before 10 am, which was surprising, cuz you know, I like to sleep late, I drank good coffee, worked on a document for the parish that The Friendly Boss (TFB) and I have been working on for 2 days. I wrote it, emailed it to him, he corrected it and I read his corrections this morning, added new stuff. We're a good team!!! So I did this, cleaned and did a bit of shredding of old papers. I had 2 boxes of old papers and TFB lend me his shredder to get rid of it I went with a friend to Bigger Town and we shopped. I needed many things at Walmart, went to my favorite store, dollar store, pharmacy and we went to mass at 16h00. AF's son was doing his first holy communion and it was a great celebration.

Did I say we had our first snow storm yesterday? And that it went on for the whole freaking day today also? It's over now but it's cold. YUCK!!!!!

So I cooked this evening a bit, I need to finish tomorrow. My house is clean, I'm sitting in my new jammies from my favorite store. They are so comfy, good god!!!! I'm just good, on my couch, with the TV on while I blog. How can life be better that this?

How was your week? How's life been treating you?

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13 things I thought about but didn't say out loud...

1. Did you?

"Nope I didn't, I didn't even get close to it. It would take a miracle"

2. Do you love me?

"I wish I did, I just can't let go and love you. I have tried, I just can't seem to fall in love with you"....

3. Was it good for you?

"I enjoyed it as much as a visit to the dentist. You couldn't tell huh????"

4. You are such a good kisser!!!

"Well big news for you, you don't! You are irritating my face with your freaking tongue. Keep that damn thing inside your mouth. You are NOT a puppie."

5. Are you going to vote for me?

"In your dreams dude, when hell freezes over!!!!"

6. Things will never change, life sucks, life's a bitch!

"Good grief, wonder why eh? With an attitude like that, no doubts life can be difficult...."

7. Can you do this?

"I can but the question is, are YOU gonna pay me?"

8. Do you love your church?

"Yeah, I love God, converted my life to him. It's the freaking Vatican I have issue with. "

9. What do you think of this?

"You don't want to know, I swear, you will regret asking me..."

10. How did you get through this?

"Dude, I survived and moved on because I don't spend time dwelling on things like this. There is no easy answer. It is called resillience, deal with it. Some people are stronger than others I guess eh?"

11. What would you do for a millions bucks???

"Dude, what wouldn't I do???"

12. What do you think of your "fantastic" mayor?

"Lets move on. Do I really have to support each and every one in their battles? NAH!!!!, I didn't think so."

13. Does celibacy and lack of sex bothers you?

"Lack of what??? And you are? How's that any of your business? "

Get yourself ready for my TT!!!

I just finished writing it, you all are going to love it or throw tomatoes (rotten) at me. I can't wait to post it!!!! Yipee!!! "13 things I've thought but did NOT say out loud..."

Have a great night guys!!!! I'll post it tomorrow nite.

very fast thoughts on a late tuesday...

Jeez, I'm leaving you all with many guesses about what I'll be writing about eh?

Nah, I was at a meeting for The Parish until almost 23h00, I can't say I'm really tired because I'm not sleepy yet..... What the hell? I got up at 5h45 and it's passed 23h00, I'm drained but don't feel it really and not sleepy... I am weird!!! TFB and The Retiree made joking references to The Party during the meeting! The Tall Friend laughed with them and I blushed. The rest of the people had no clue what the inside joke was about.

I was able to get an appointment to get my flu shot tomorrow evening at the clinic. Thank God!!!!

I was thinking of doing "13 things I've never said out loud"for tomorrow TT's. That would be a good idea...

Doncha think? It could be life changing for some to hear these.

On the movie "License to wed"...

I saw the movie last night, what can I say. I can only assure you that the marriage preparation classes here aren't like that. Good grief, the reverend is a weirdo and for those who saw the movie, when I saw his assistant, I giggled, told TYP "Dude, that's Annoying Liturgy Lady in the body of a child" . Anyone saw it? Did ya like it? It is not an amazing film, but it's a cute, empty comedy. If that makes sense.

I had a quiet weekend and I appreciated it. Friday worked on the musical project for The Parish, satyrday slept in late, cooked and cleaned, got dressed only at 16h00, had dinner with TYP, we watched the movie and played cards. Today, I didn't go out at all, watched a couple of episode of "What not to wear" on the internet, relaxed, I did sleep late also and now I'm just chillin'. This is going to be a crazy busy week at work, so I have got to be in top shape.

I'm inviting you to go read Nicholas's post on Buck naked politics.

On this guys, I wish you a great sunday evening and a wonderful week...

Oh my God 20/20 Camden, NJ: Have a little faith

I'm watching Diane Sawyer's show on Camden, NJ. This is the first time I watch anything on this specific topic. It is soo fucking sad. I am in tears, it's crazy... What the hell? These poor kids and poor families. Life can be soo fucking unfair. These people are amazing, they have lots of hope and faith. which is so important. All of these people will be in my prayers.

I'm soo blessed, it's unbelievable... You know the weird thing? It takes me a lot to cry "for me", but good god, this is just soo sad. The little boy "Ivan" just was the most precious little boy in the world...

Has anyone seen it? Is anyone watching right now? Am I alone to cry? I sure hope not....

On another topic, I'm working on the musical project for The Parish, after meeting with TTF tonight, I've got a lot of work to do this weekend. and I'm happy to do this for my church.

I won't be as boring this weekend...

Hopefully for me eh? Anyway, I am well, I need many things you guys can't give me... I need hugs I need to get la..I barely have energy for someone else but at the same time I'd like to cuddle with someone else than Mr.Cat at night...

But for real, I am not emotionnaly available for anyone than Mr.Cat full time. I can't see myself getting home to a lot. I need things to run easy at night, I need things to be easy and not complicated. It's just weird, I wish to have someone to hold me and cuddle me, I'm not talking about sex. But at the same time I'm happy for my celibacy. It's a fucking paradox eh?

Anyone know what the hell is wrong with my spelling check function? it's not working? I click and nothing happens. WTF???

Anyway, TGIF!!!! I'm going to work on the project for The Parish tomorrow night... Anyway, that's my boring rambling... I'm taking my butt to bed!!!!

13 reasons why I don't have a TT this week..

1. I have been working on a project for The Parish and it's been time consuming. It's a music project!!!

2. I never get off work before 17h00 and not at home before 18h15.

3. I need time to sleep and relax....

4. I thought of doing my TT many times but I decided to work on something else... (The Parish)

5. I want to sleep...

6. I was at TFB and SW's house on monday night for, you guessed right, The Parish. But it was a nice time, I had a good meal with 2 friends and we worked on a project and laughed a lot.

7. I had to reinstall my MacOS 10.4 system because my fucking system crashed.

8. I have been surfing a lot of blogs and it is time consuming.

9. I wanted to do my TT on paper today at lunch but we went outside to eat to celebrate someone who left for vacations. So I had no time alone at lunch.

10. I'm happy to know it's TT, because it means the end of the week is coming. yuppers, that makes me happy. This means sleep!!!!

11. Am I writing a TT?

12. I want the weekend to be happening! I need sleep, I need sleep and I need sleep.

13. I don't have time to do a real Thursday Thirteen but I promise you next week you'll get something good!